You gave me a dream, I had some hope
I was believing, we could hang onto the rope
But nope, I slipped when I gave you an open book
I had nothing to hide, but that still left you shook

You’re up in your head, analyzing each of my rhymes
When I speak my mind, you only listen so you can reply
Instant judgement, because you don’t want to understand
I was honest to the bone and genuine in my underpants

But no, you came to your conclusion already
Our dream was a delusion, I was worth less than a penny-
I did not mean everything I said to you
When you pushed my fuse, and made me go Ka-BOOM

You said, “I hope I’m preggo with your kiddo,
Just so I can abort it, you fuckin sicko!”
How did I react to that? I tried to empathize
But you twisted the dagger, you made this man cry

Why, do I endure this, abuse
You’ve hit me, it left a bruise
Blamed me, everything I do
Hurt me, I guess, I have to be immune

This is abuse. I won’t take it.
I love you, but I hate this relationship
I gotta be Mr.Flawless, no mistakes
While you break me down, and spit in my face

I take every shot on the chin, like its no bother
But after you said, you would kill my unborn daughter
All bets are off, you pushed a button, it hurt
And that’s not even what’s worst

Day after day, you kept reading my anger
Reminding me why I presented that behaviour
Now, I’m a stranger to you, and you think you're pregnant
Everything I say, you re-arrange it,

I’m freezing in my basement, , what should I say
But I keep hearing , “kill the baby” on replay!!!
Am I crazy, why did this lady make me go insane?
Maybe this time, if Im patient, she will change…

I’m chasing dreams now, but its a nightmare
I keep this smile, and I pretend like I care
I’m scared, I thought I found soul partner
But then you said I’m dead to you..

Why, do I endure this, abuse
You’ve hit me so hard, there was a bruise
Then you, blame me, ‘cuz I was being rude
You can do anything to hurt me, I guess, I have to be immune

This is abuse. I won’t take it.
I love you, but I hate this relationship
I gotta be Mr.Flawless, no mistakes
While you break me down, and spit in my face

You should have said would,
But instead, you went with could
So he thinks he has a chance in your book
I dunno girl, this is not a good look

He could with you, if he was nice like me
You tell him, he can have you again, eventually
Lead him by the leash, you won’t cut him off
how many times he cuts you down, or puts you on block

Stop, like what the fuck is going on
I piss you off once, and you're back at his farm
Back under his control, arm length away from harm
I sitting stressing, hoping you set your boundaries strong

I’m far from ok, honestly, I don’t know what I can say
The way you go back to him, I feel betrayed
Why did I open up to put everything on display
For you to go back to an abuser who will never change

Why, do I endure this, abuse?